Dear,
Thanks for the wishes. I've started to write to you several times, but it never feels right if I don't have much to say- to you. You're not the "average" guy.
Just a little while ago I found myself wishing that my life was a little more routine and boring than it is. "Live in the moment" is the wisdom that I'm supposed to employ at all times- one of my hardest lessons yet. I can certainly enjoy beauty in spite of bad situations, I can appreciate goodness in spite of evil, and I relish pleasure even in the face of pain. What I can't seem to do is surrender my fear. Not when I really need to.
How many difficulties does a person need to sustain before KNOWING that it is not the outcome that matters? It is the income, the realization of gain- whether it's heart, knowledge, wisdom, or understanding... that we take from it, that sums up our total. But this philosophy doesn't seem to make things easier when you're weathering a storm. Then again, who said anything should ever be easy?
If I look forward to the end of the tunnel, I'll miss the light right now- the pink hues that are settling over the mountains, or the glow that will rise inside tomorrow morning's fog, when the sun awakens.
I hope your night is filled with beauty and peace,
Laura
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