7.17.17 (Lucky sevens)

Every reality is a glimpse of
any spectrum...
colored or collared and chained
by mankind
because of what
we are

what if we were just beautiful, like the infinite, unnamed colors?

Stop screamin' at me

If you had seen me crying
If you had felt the way I felt

If you had been the measure
of all the pain, my heart would melt

When you stand here, with me
Feeling the blood drip down my skin

Can you feel the pain that I feel?
Can you hold me, deep within?

anowrecksia.x

You can't chug it down...

another bite of that filth

so you waste away,

becoming something new and shiny.


Is that just fear, whittling you away,

or

is this slow-motion suicide?



comebackaroundmyfriend

Writing a children's book.

I thought I saw you
on the other side
in that place where colors
marry
rainbows
and love guides your hand
toward my heart


but I can't feel you anymore

Where did you go?
I could not know what it is that you sought from me,
lest you tell me

in a roar
or a whisper

Where are you now?
I'm still lingering in that land where you promised me

your strength.

#fictionalcharacterslikeyou

3.31

The chug, chug, glug of the coffee
maker dripping what I want,
like always before

Today with no good morning
on my phone or
reason to rush home

I'll take another sip
from this familiar cup as
once again, it fills with pain

With each dripping,
ripping me
apart

Gale forced twins

You meant everything to me, in every breath,

on every breeze

tossed about on fettered dreams we sailed,

me 

and

you

just a whisper in the wind

#ohyoumeanweactuallyareallone

a new prayer

over this
heart of

mine, I hold my hands in a
yearning to do

good.
oh dear one, please
do not feel judged by my misunderstanding of You!


I pray you gift your patience to me, as I learn to be better-
      setting you free from my own ills. 

Excuse me

i
wanna bear
your scars

the way

you
wear your
scars

with

dignity, wisdom and grace

#weareone

a piece of mind

RAGE

DOUBT

ANGER

GUILT

SELF-LOATHING

SLOW SUICIDE

DISCORD

COWARDICE

LYIN'

FEAR
:SIN

_____________

p e a c e


#somechoiceschooseforyou
#whatyouseedependsonwhereyourestanding

Happy New Ear

For every person who ever stumbled across my path
falling victim to the version of want and need
I carefully sculpted myself to be, to simply feed me

I wish you could see me now, as I am here
barren of all rights to anything;
I give to you my secret love

Love, devoid of anything me,
all for the good thoughts of you,
that you will always be

ℐ ḉᾰℵ ℌℯᾰԻ ⑂✺ṷ ℵ☀ẅ!

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The quieted mind

Having read by many lights        in the dim sun or the brightest night

          You and I have known many things        some of them wrong, some a bit more enlightened

Seen many hearts and minds, some,       I thought I had somehow known, somewhere

Maybe once I knew you, maybe before you ever even knew yourself

Maybe you can show me something that I never knew I neeeded

to be something that life might choose to gift me, gift us

Show me your belly. I'm gonna kiss it anyway.

Give to me, so I can nibble your bounty

Graciousness, ours in our 

quiet hearts

#wordart 
#goodmorningBaby

swiss cheese

Why hold onto the need
to believe in
an irrelevant dose of "reality"

Don't buy into anyone else's reality
And certainly don't buy into your own
need ever, to be right

So many holes...where to begin...

the autumn leaves have got me thinking

Coots play their autumn games in the pond

which men desire to conquer, lest they bogey,

while their stogies’ smoke drifts past my window

Sitting broken, I watch their world shrinking

like the ink in our long lost letters





 

I always knew, that someday...

but I had no idea that I needed to stop thinking that I knew anything, before I could ever begin to know enough to just let love be.

5.2 aftershock

I wanna be your light in the darkness

and your dark little laughters which make my belly quake

I wanna be your softness on this road

of spikes and nail-torn tires

I wanna be your friend for the ages

as we fill each others' sails

I wanna be your heart's great longing

over the years and across the miles

I wanna be your deepest passion,

obeying your deepest desires

I wanna be yours til

the end of time,

which, I believe, is where

I first knew you

Oh this sudden waking up with you, is so damn dreamy

you send me over the moon, Baby

every time I turn to you

6/2/16

arouse.d as the dawn of night,
as if a dream, all at once, came true
where
beckoned not are the dreamers,
but rather, the ones who dare to live
here

aged

You who dare not drink from this fountain of yoUth,
grace becomes you in those deep lines deepening
(just because yoUr smile enlightens everything)

I'm wondering, can you see me?
From way out there, beyond the scope of fleshy art,
my light beckoned for love, and only you heard me

Oh but maybe I've just lost my mind.
Was it because his heart roared in unison with the universal union
of light and peace in everyone, that I could finally hear again?

Nom, nom, nom. Ahhhh. Stay, please.

In the sudden bang of thunder's cry,

I knew you in an instant

My belly shook as my knees went weak

my flesh felt as if melting away

No longer was I lonely like

his unheard, hidden song

I am different now, so are we

for you are not the same

Oh, come melt with me

in the desert night

You, the one who sang to me

You, with the heart-mending wiles

(...be my darkness, be my light...)

Pique a Boo

It wasn't a snap, crack or whistle
nothing was burnt up, nothing frozen
still, the dust of debris in the midst of this dream
could not dim the light of this morning
When our soul shouted as we
roared through the Universe


#youmakemytummyquake

frozen fingers

Even in her mixed up mind
I somehow always knew
just how much she loved me,
but more so, how much she loved you

a diamond for a princess
whether from a king or cad
Burn down our invisible fences
which keep us from what we have

Tired of racing past these lessons
stopping abruptly with a halt that grinds
my guru crushed against the asphalt
I've killed again, this happy finding

You gotta stop and smell things
like burning rolls or rubber
Because every moment that your heart pings
makes it the best one, ever  

#wakeup !