Sunrise

In a delirious dream state some time ago, I still remember the way that my head and heart swirled when I let go and became one with the incredible moment pictured below. It was actually a series of incredible moments as the scene progressed and grew more beautiful with the intensifying light. A few days later the poem came. They seemed to be made for each other. I am grateful and humbled that life, itself, chose to share this with me.

(This is where I go when I seem to be gone...)

She breathed in, and then out again
air
colder than the dark afternoon
as if
death had already seized her limp, fainting
soul
Staring into the gray blue autumn
sky
watching the still clouds frozen
as if
the very last moment before the ice age came
to freeze
Remnants of life and love and hope
in
the pictures scratched by the bare, stark
twigs
that cling listlessly to yellow threads of
life
Lingering in the cold, all alone again til her last
breath
shattered the stillness of death's frozen
scene when
she dreamed of sleep's blanket, to awaken one
day-
the new life, the warmth,
the promise of
spring 


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Tell me why you want me to want you
when you don't even want to want me

You're so broken that I think you are more right
than most who have never even splintered

Where is the line-the line that you crossed
the one you can't come back from?

From here it looks like just a crack, but
for you it must seem an insubordinate chasm

turning toward the light

you must have been the heart of god
when love was what god thought of
for in the brilliance of your love and kindness
you ignited the star lights by the millions
and in morning's gift of sky so blue
I swear-
god loves me more when my thoughts are of you
yes, you must have been the heart of god
when god first thought to love

thank you

The grapes I hath

This morning I held a firm, plump grape in my hand before popping it in my mouth and rolling it around a bit with my tongue.

Biting down with my sharp front teeth, I love that sensation of the popping of the skin, followed by the sweet juices engulfing my tongue. The inner flesh of that fruit is what I craved until its smooth bits tossed about my mouth now satisfied.

There is so little of what we think is real, that really matters. It's the sweet, fleshy fruit that becomes us, not the skin that we find so alluring.

Today I woke the sun

There are the mountains you have climbed
only to have fallen down the other side.

You have lived in the depths of abundance
only to blink your eyes and find yourself drowning in an abyss.

Oh and haven't you danced to the music of life only
to have life swept out from under your feet?

But every time the sun rises to warm your face
at the end of the darkest night
Life kisses you as you dance up the mountain
one more time.

All of those hurts-the ones you've inflicted and the ones you've endured. I think it's the ones that I've dished out that hurt me the most-now. Remorse is the most lethal karma until I remember that my inflictions of pain on others helped them in the end, the way my own wounds have healed me.

"We're all just here walking each other home."

You love the cards when they are favorable,
yet despise them when they do not suit you.
The cards which are dealt
must be played to win.

Thank you.

There is nothing left to desire.

Love has found me.

It is my inner fire.


She asked, "what if you are your greatest love?"

Sometimes it's not so bad to be wrong.

I suppose so ;}

Go ahead and describe the perfect sunset
It'll never touch you the way that
its kisses will as they work their way
down your body
inch by inch
encircling you with the warmth
and wetness
of her colorful caresses
when you stare into her eye,
letting her
have her way with you

Come on now, touch me baby...

Can you see it?
This bright glint of light
mingling with day before
turning to night

one small flash of wonder
as I dance through day's light
propelled by the magic
of this dream's lovely might

Can you hear it?
This sweet note of splendor
which harmony joins
in the sweetest surrender

one small clash of thunder
to waken the earth
as sweet spirits sleep
awaiting their birth

Can you feel it?
moving just for a second,
the universe trembles
for it knows how my heart yearns

one small jolt of motion
one heart can't stop beating
one soul for its wanting
one great dream for the taking

     -  -  -  -  -  -  -  -  -  -

(And I hovered over you today
I hope you do not mind
but as my heart was flying by,
I felt your soul in kind

just one quick flash of lightning
which caught my eye...
your dream's bright light-
lit up the sky)

...it is a small world!

The epoch ellipse

And what of this?

The beginning of time
as time is redefined
in an explosion
of things that matter
that matter to my heart
my new heart

Heat so intense
as every molecule of
my being reinvents
itself in your new light
which you shine on me
exploding all over me

A new universe
created in just one fraction of
this moment
or was it?
Was this world a culmination
of all of the heat,

hammered by this one big bang?
Each explosion the
beginning of a new world
(inside me)
each time we shake the earth
from which we came
and find a new home

Ashes to ashes
and dust to dust
what we were, are,
and will be
a part of each and
every one of us

Why do you take yourself so seriously? Why don't you?

Starfish

Even the ocean knows stillness

and in these moments reflects

the stars

or maybe in losing itself,

becomes them

(And you and I are not so different after all.)

To inherit the earth

Ask of me anything you want
take whatever you think you need
Know that I will surely give
for love has made a slave of me

Towering tree beyond my reach
ever stretching toward the sky
never does it fail to shelter
the restless wings of tireless flight

nor does the ocean cease to harbor
whales or turtles or angle faced fish
with never a question and never a doubt
for love's beating heart is anonymous

It's not that I crave your hungry, warm kisses
or the grasp of your strong, searching hand
These treats after all are not mine to savor
but I once knew your heart in the world of forever

So ask what you will and take what you need
for mine is the deepest pleasure
when I pray that I give you what you need to become
love's devoted slave, forever

if not for me, then for the world... 

We never lose by loving, only by holding back

(,♥‿♥,) morning glory

Tell me what soul is
not incredible
name me a heart that
does not beat out loud
Take me to that place
that you go and
Hold me in your strength
while I blossom and glow

Laugh with me while we
sprout with the green grass
sing me this new song that
I never knew to play
For light and love are not
the heart's consumption
but the light of your own raw emotions
when you learn to choose to play the song


I am sorry I never knew you
but I think I know you now
as the smile turns toward the moon
as the sun lays low, and this
long day ends and my dreams
blossom anew

thank you

L'il Blossom

Please do not miss-take
my silence for
anything other than
that feeling that overtakes
the night as she basks
in the glow of the light
of what she once was,
knowing how full she will be
even in the
depths of darkness...

a place where the memory
ever vibrant, tickles me
in an aftershock
where I shake
and tremble just as I did
when you filled my brokenness
as your bliss spilled over me
for in that one moment gone
I am -always- eternity

In my silence I go there
so I can be with you

Yeah you...what's your name?

Hope is the thing that tethers

Oh let me be the one

Who fills and moves your sails

The one who thrills your senses

Love that never pales

Let me be the coupling

That conducts your flowing current

The pulse that beats and quickens

The one your yearning dream meant

My heart knew yours

So long ago

It might have been a dream

But then I saw your

Face once more

Among the living realm

Why don't you want to be the one

The one who’d die to move me

The one who craves this radiant vibe

To soothe your soul completely

Oh won’t you be the kiss of g~d

Your lips upon my lips

My sweetest song, like heaven's touch

Strummed from your fingertips

Your heart knew mine

Before, I know

In a different place and time

but when I saw your face in

this familiar place

I knew you’d soon be mine

My Sat.song

A counsel of stars
one ring with many
twists and turns
new shapes
new love
new understanding
no hands touching
every heart held
this is love
this is love
this is love

Senseless

If you can't hear it
close your eyes
tie your hands behind your back
lower your head
and listen with your heart

turn it around
be with it
hover in its nothingness
engulfing its everything
listen with your heart

The moon in the man

In a night ever dreamless

Across a backdrop of black

There are no stars, nor their beams to guide us

Was I the one who beckoned this?

Did my yearning turn the earth

As we slithered away from the light?

What is this face that’s always changing?

Is this visage now waxing?

Or is this sliver ever waning?

This sickle cuts me a new soul

Change is not the goal

But the constant beam enlightened

In the face of the man in the moon

A vow to sigh less.

There were a couple of times this week where I was involved with conversations which were pretty heavy. Each time the speaker was interrupted while sharing some pretty intense thoughts, feelings, recollections...

People speak when they need to be heard. I'm glad I was witness to this even though one of those times it was me who kept getting cut off. Silence is not my new vow. Listening is. Talk to me.

What greater appreciation and love is there in any day, than to just BE with someone?

terrabull

I looked past the hills and valleys and I think past many raging waters and lapping shores; and saw a mother feeding her starving child with scant portions of everything but love

Skin and bones, hungry eyes. I'm not sure if greater sighs came from the mouth of the hungry child or the heart of the mother who could not feed him near enough

Yesterday I heard someone blabbering on about having to pay a little more to own the world and how she couldn't buy the best cookies any more from her bountiful store

She raged on with hatred against the people who were trying to feed the masses of starving people who needed care, people who weren't her

I swear, the world was spinning so slowly out of control today until I looked into my own heart and saw the loving mother who did not have enough, as well as the one who had more than most

And my heart asked me if I knew where in the world, the real famine was