Reaching out beyond the dream of what you thought was real, spinning on this ball of life, head now under heel. Ready to die, to live this life so raw, alive on ledge- dancing, hurling, freeing your soul to finally stretch the edge.

Sunday, February 7, 2016

In the warmth of golden light


May you be blessed
by
the eternal comfort of
Love
May I be comforted
by
an infinite love other than
what
I perceive to be my 
own
Before we say Farewell
I
hope I get to tell you my 
thanks
for being a part of my glorious
Life
The force which mingles my heart, laying
bare
with my emptied mind; my vulnerability, married to our
intimacy-
Ahhh--
this is
how we
grow


Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Little voices

Look at you, frantically grabbing at straws
too afraid to just go under
This air I breathe is all I need to
be with you;...whenever I want to

This time I think I'll want to need you, too

Only two of the same dumb mistakes
maligned to redesign this course
that I once thought, worth wishing for, but
Thinking is a fool's game


Saturday, January 30, 2016

The little web-steress writes her own definition

Maybe art is baring your feelings or knowledge; allowing others to feel safe in feeling their own. 

Masterpieces are created when you share the beauty of any or every thing, by evoking a sense of awe for a feeling that kisses your soul's essence, abruptly waking you up: delighting all your senses.

Tell me yours.


wake up

ᏕᏂᏋ ᏰᏝᎧᎧᎷᏕ!

 
I breathe you in
you breathe me out
my mind and heart as one
I fix my eyes on your big, blue eye
and with just one breath I
take you in, before
I come again,
to You and
Me


 "Flowers in her hair...flowers everywhere..."

Sunday, January 10, 2016

The New Moon

It was so dark last night.  There was nothing that I could see. 
My morning prayer was this:Change Me, please.  I want to be even better than what I've already become, to please the grandest love that has come to me.


#sheblooms




Last night I asked the angels

to show my love to me

to bring me to his splendor

awakened in my dream

Perched on the edge of a thick white cloud

I spread my wings and while calling out

you heard my song and then you came

and we danced across the sky
til

Morning's glory gently woke me

from my soft, green grassy nest

but she dared not take from me,

you, my greatest awakening

So I walked the path while the whispered

pleas wafted to me from the trees

The words, unclear, I could not hear

yet I knew they spoke of you, my dear
 then

 I ran through the streets

of this big, scary city

searching for you

in every nook and cranny

Scanning the faces of

each one in the masses and

Holding my breath til

each soul by me, passed
now

 I wait tired in the light

on the corner in the night

Oh angels, hear my prayer

One more time- please take me there


It's in the weave of the yin and the yang, the perfect blend of everything

Glowball warming

Before it was a river
Laid a dry and barren plain
Beneath the mountains’ towering
Slides to flash the falling rain

Before there was a mountain
Breathed land above the silent plates
Soon to erupt within the molten core
Unaware of its magnificent fate

Before it was a spinning earth
A mass of unfathomable light
Forced to be this world we see
Our pleasure, now our right

Before it was my light, my love
My name was always this
Conceived by the rain and cosmic pain
Life bore me, its daughter, BLISS

By the fire

Dark, bone-chilling morning
not yet turned to light
I reach for a match
which when struck, will ignite

A small stream of smoke
follows jumbling sparks
sweet yellow-orange flame
starts to burn through the dark

Midst the hissing and jumping
of the heat that runs through me
I yearn for your touch, your beauty
which you surrender so freely

and oh, you keep me warm

In reverence I bow at the
base of your fire,
cup my hands round your warmth,
stoking sweet, deep desire

Not one question arises
in this safe, cozy room
for engulfed are we in this
swift, rising plume


Sunday, January 3, 2016

#agiftisagiftisagiftisagift

not of the flesh
nor
dreamless night


neither there
yet
everywhere

are these sounds our hearts beating
or
the beauty of stars bursting wide

no sense glistens more
or
less than another when

We are here, You and I
in
the in-between

I remember that night I met him. He did not let me see him at all, until I somehow made him smile. I took it in. I felt, saw, smelled, tasted and swallowed it. You were delicious, Mr. Man. Within mere minutes we were laughing and talking so freely that I had no awareness of anything other than his story, his sweet and mellow voice, and some uninhibited laughter from both of us. See? You can fall in love with something in an instant. I have a collection of these beautiful moments from  people; some of whom I was very briefly acquainted. Some, even romantically.

#keeponrockininthefreedworld
  


Thursday, December 31, 2015

familiar recipes



Home Cookin’

Ahhh...a pinch of this and 2 teaspoons of that meshed with sifted this and zested that
Two minds, two hearts, whisked into these blended treasures
Of truth, comfort and freedom, 
beyond even the uncommon standards,
for this cannot be merely measured
or ever even imagined

#setmefreewhydontyoubabe

Careless whispers

Ask of me anything you want
take whatever it is that you think you need,
always knowing that I will surely give
for Love has made a slave of me

The memory of writing the long version of this excerpt of a poem is among the sweetest of my heart's affections. Maybe I'm crazy but it seems that the people to whom I've selflessly given love in spite of my knowing that I wouldn't be getting it back in a tangible form, are the ones I remember the most fondly.

A mere 10 years to re-alize myself. It's like ascending to the stratosphere with there is no antonym for clarity. I think I might even hear some angels singing. Or perhaps I'm experiencing a delusion of grandeur.  If the truth is something different than this, I would like to know it someday, should Truth find me worthy of its knowing. I do know this, though:The number of truths that touch us are as infinite as the souls multiplied their many realizations, knowings, or learnings. There is no end to this massive, masturbatory orgy of life.

Don't stop. But every now and then, bow to what waits for you. There is no formula for success, other than to be re-born in every moment or opportunity where love calls you in. Whether your heart is warmed or frozen, just stfu and listen sometimes.

So to re-write this excerpt in an acceptably apropos language to love and life, I offer this:

Let me take from you everything I want
Oh, let me Give you everything you think you need
For my Love surely gives
As it has been given, to me

#newversion  #wordsgonewild  #bewithme

Oh you sad, sad fool:
Love is undeniably, your anchored rule
But you smirk that sly, wise smile
for you know what cannot be denied...

And I, I bow in silence.

Not this time

Just when I thought
I had handles on this
I could soften my guard behind false confidence

Just when I felt
Humble pie, insipid
Exempt from this blind-side and firmly in its grip
Cause I am seduced by obsessions, and under the influence
I'm slipping again
I'm up to old tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc
                          and consequence

I get reduced by my own willfulness as
I reach for my usual Love! replacements
Cause I am rich with sanction and lax in my steps

I'm unworthy again
I'm up to old tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc

I'm wreaking havoc and consequence

If forgiveness is understanding
Then I offer mea culpa for the millionth time
From this tumbling house of cards of mine

I am beaten by my impulsiveness
By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret
Cause I'm repulsed by indifference. At least that's my excuse

I'm slipping again
I'm up to old tricks off my wagon
I have no defense I'm
Wreaking havoc and consequence

-My greatest teacher, A. Morissette
(Thank You!)

Actually,  you can teach an old dog new tricks. The dog just has to want to.  What's wrong with spots, anyway? At least they're real.




Wednesday, December 23, 2015

The sounds of silence

I cannot hear your words no more
ear's pressed against the earthen floor
Your thoughts no longer wear my face
my soul has won that measly race

my skin now pricked, releases the throng
of the toxic rights and righteous wrongs
now snorting the light and huffing on love
for of these my heart can't get enough

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

I met a friend tonight...

Don't you kiss me too quickly.

Let me linger in this longing
long enough to know
just how hungry I am
for one endless kiss from you.

Don't you dare.

Saturday, December 5, 2015

#ihopethatsnotatraincomingatme

Is this the white light of knowing
or is this the sun, now rising?

Were you the one who sleighted me
or the one who kept me going

(all tied up in your sexy dreams of sweet things and yummy whispers)

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Food for thought

More and more posts are popping up, as experience has taught me to expect so, about boycotting businesses that are open on Thanksgiving Day. But didn't I see you at the convenient store or Stater Bros last Christmas morning? Did you watch football on Thanksgiving? It's a Wonderful Life on Christmas? Those athletes are working hard as are the cameramen, refs, concessions and security personnel, producers, and a multitude more which I have not imagined. Doctors, firemen and police officers, janitors in hospitals and help in the jails: All necessities for which we conveniently pivot away from our former convictions. 

Some people don't celebrate the holidays the way you do, or they adjust their schedules to celebrate. Remember how the original feast was three days long? Was it even on a Thursday? (I don't know.) Was Jesus actually born in December? I'm pretty sure he wasn't. We have conveniently customized sacred events to be what and when we want them to be.  So what's wrong with others doing the same?  If we had remained true to the actual feast d'facade, deciding that its observation should be three whole days, we'd have to wait til Sunday to do our Black Friday shopping. How poignant would Elvis have been singing about having a Green Christmas Without You? What if we couldn't dream of a white Christmas, and had to dream of a green one, instead?

I used to sometimes really enjoy working on holidays and I'm happy for my youngest son when he has to work inconvenient Mother's Day shifts, or til very late on Christmas Eve, a he inherited my love of dashing madly through the bustles of busy-ness while polishing his art of service. He respects and honors what he is giving to people, and takes great pride in the joy that they receive even though many of them never realize the depth of his sincerity.

We have chosen and assigned what and how we celebrate. Whether that meaning is religious, financial or familial, it IS the reason for whomever holds it. If I customize anything as I see fit, and expect everyone else to fall in between the lines of my convenient rigidity, I'm robbing you of your right for your own meaningful choice. I'm not sure why we worry so much about what others choose, anyway, since we will never fathom the depth of another's need or the actuality of their heart. But that's a topic for a whole new ranting. 

When you call your loved ones and friends this holiday season, be thankful that you can. But also whisper a thanks to the person who's keeping that phone line working. Be grateful when you turn your oven on, for those who are keeping it on. (You're probably cooking, I'm guessing.) Will you drive to be with loved ones? You might need gas.  What if you crash your car going to visit granny, will you wait until tomorrow for a tow truck? I truly pray you won't need an EMT, as well. But they will be there, giving you their best when you are not equipped to even think about them. (Thank you!)

However it is that you will celebrate these holidays, please know that I hope you are fortunate enough to both give and receive love, regardless of the date, time, venue or tradition. And if you decide to attend or watch a football game or shop at Wal-Mart, I think you CAN give thanks- out loud and openly, or quietly mumbling to every cashier, attendant, utility worker or yourself for providing a time and place for everything we mean to enjoy.

"It's in the giving, that we receive."

Sunday, October 25, 2015

:(

hold my heart tonight

keep it safe from all the sounds
of loneliness and fear
and of things I cannot dream
hold me close tonight

be the soothing balm that
heals me be the easy slip that
frees me from me                                       
hold my heart tonight

reach your strong hand toward mine
sit beside me in the dimming light
be my brightness, be my guide
please, hold me through the endless night

and closer through the thickening dark
while I cherish the light and kindness
beating through your soul, as mine
hold my heart

it's so cold out here, tonight

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Questionable

If we seek anything other than truth
what are we seeking?

What are we defending in
the absence of actuality?

What do you believe in?
Why?

Saturday, October 10, 2015

The corner of Hell & Main

My life, my love
the pits and the flowers
rainbows and showers
Will dawn break open the darkest night?

Can you come over, love
from that place in your dream
where you are neither there nor here, but
asleep in daylight and slumber?

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Drownin in U

Set me free!
Can you really be with me?
Pour your soul 
into my hands?
Your heart
into my river?

Waters' colors



along the black and jagged edges of my past
seen through the ecstasy of your pain
your beautiful eyes graze toward
each shiny little patch in the middle,
like the glisten in a drop of rain or
the thinnest little seed of light,
the very first glimpse that awakens the dawn---
always falling from your eyes, yet again
to dilute these lines, stretching
colors all across my forms

what do you see in me?