And just what did I do to deserve this?

Y.F.S.

lies
lies
lies


you
fuckin'
suck

God's whispers

Oh let me be the one

Who fills and moves your sails

The one who thrills your senses

Love that never pales

Let me be the coupling

That conducts your flowing current

The pulse that beats and quickens

The one your yearning dream meant

 

My heart knew yours

So long ago

It might have been a dream

But then I saw your

Face once more

Among the living realm

 

Why don't you want to be the one

The one who’d die to move me

The one who craves this radiant vibe

To soothe your soul completely

 

Oh won’t you be the kiss of g~d

Your lips upon my lips (whispering)

My sweetest song, like heaven's touch

Strummed from your fingertips

Your heart knew mine, before, I know

In a different place and time

but when I saw your face in

this familiar place

I knew you’d soon be mine

YOU MEAN WE ACTUALLY ARE ALL ?

I

don't want to be

on a side

I

want to be

the best for

every ONE

This is the time, more than ever, that we need to reach out... expand... grow beyond our current
understandings.  We need to hear each other... not the chatter... of blood money's manipulative matters
of attaining more

All of my dollars are taxed.
So should, theirs, be.

We all love good service at
some jacked up box or coffee bean fancery

But we don't want to pay for their happiness, too?

Doesn't that beautiful smile, every morning, just make your day?

Does that barrista not deserve to know that she and her children are guaranteed liberty, life and the pursuit of happiness?  What, about her service, do you not need?  What about that "SPIC" garbage serviceman who always waves with a smile, because he knows he is working hard and doing his best.  INVALUABLE.

YES!!! Some of us have worked harder than others to achieve a certain success.  But some of us are on the verge of something that perhaps, had been solved, previously on the successful one's familial journey.  We're all coming from where we're coming from.  What if we bow to each other's journey?

This does not mean that people have no accountability. But what if we shared our experiences of each others' mistakes?  Hear each other... try to understand variant needs?  Needs, as if they were ours.  Because they are all ours.  We all have needs, and we all try to fill them.

You or your children are not more important than my custodian's, president's or secretary's needs.  We ALL make the world go round.

The thing is, is that there's nothing to really talk about.

What do we talk about?  Our feelings? Reactions? Resolutions?

These are just ours, but we have to question why?


WHY do we need to be right about anything?



There are a million ways (or more) to add up to a thousand.



Is there anywhere that we need to be, other than where we are now, ... just listening...blissfully learning?

...no sound
...no voice


...just the truths we need to be free

Life's one of those 1,000 piece puzzles of a bowl of popcorn.
Hey...spritz  a little butter and enjoy!

I have nothing else to say.

l'eyes

So you brought me down a time or two
but it was I who nearly begged you to,
With my lack of wants and voided needs
I banished you to the hell of misdeeds

These lying eyes can now clearly see
how I should have yelled...
              how you should have screamed

They say they see your eyes, you know
well, I see your big heart, too
In this land of dreaming I'm make-believing
sinking quickly into the dark's black evening

I pray for the dawn's conceiving of life, ANEW
Will you pray for me? I am praying for you,
for surely we lie as one

Hypocrite?

Prey, tell me,

before I eat your words alive;

what it is that my demon

has to do to survive

in a world where yours feasts aplenty

?

LOTD

the only validation you need to seek
is that of your highest self

How does that look?
A lot like your "god," I'll bet

Not for the feigned of heart

So you are "for" your choice,
but I have to ask why
you preserve life,
but then send men who kill children, to die
to line the pockets of the rich
who you pretend to be with,
always hoping they are with you


if you are with 'g~D'
then I'm pretty sure they are not
with you, as Jesus would never do
what they do to you,
ever


Stop throwing your money at them
they don't care about you
and yet they hope you believe
that you are one of, and just like: them

You are not, excepting your ignorance which is
your greatest sin.

RE:

Don't BE bitter
BE the love you always
knew you needed

instead of kicking me again

Then not only will you be the love,
but you will have the love...

the one you always needed

7.17.17 (Lucky sevens)

Every reality is a glimpse of
any spectrum...
colored or collared and chained
by mankind
because of what
we are

what if we were just beautiful, like the infinite, unnamed colors?

Stop screamin' at me

If you had seen me crying
If you had felt the way I felt

If you had been the measure
of all the pain, my heart would melt

When you stand here, with me
Feeling the blood drip down my skin

Can you feel the pain that I feel?
Can you hold me, deep within?

anowrecksia.x

You can't chug it down...

another bite of that filth

so you waste away,

becoming something new and shiny.


Is that just fear, whittling you away,

or

is this slow-motion suicide?



comebackaroundmyfriend

Writing a children's book.

I thought I saw you
on the other side
in that place where colors
marry
rainbows
and love guides your hand
toward my heart


but I can't feel you anymore

Where did you go?
I could not know what it is that you sought from me,
lest you tell me

in a roar
or a whisper

Where are you now?
I'm still lingering in that land where you promised me

your strength.

#fictionalcharacterslikeyou

3.31

The chug, chug, glug of the coffee
maker dripping what I want,
like always before

Today with no good morning
on my phone or
reason to rush home

I'll take another sip
from this familiar cup as
once again, it fills with pain

With each dripping,
ripping me
apart

Gale forced twins

You meant everything to me, in every breath,

on every breeze

tossed about on fettered dreams we sailed,

me 

and

you

just a whisper in the wind

#ohyoumeanweactuallyareallone

a new prayer

over this
heart of

mine, I hold my hands in a
yearning to do

good.
oh dear one, please
do not feel judged by my misunderstanding of You!


I pray you gift your patience to me, as I learn to be better-
      setting you free from my own ills. 

Excuse me

i
wanna bear
your scars

the way

you
wear your
scars

with

dignity, wisdom and grace

#weareone

a piece of mind

RAGE

DOUBT

ANGER

GUILT

SELF-LOATHING

SLOW SUICIDE

DISCORD

COWARDICE

LYIN'

FEAR
:SIN

_____________

p e a c e


#somechoiceschooseforyou
#whatyouseedependsonwhereyourestanding